real life

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Cheevs?

I think I've plateau'd with adding flavour text to Faxephoun. At least, I have little idea of what to do next for that particular daydream. I need to do some research about building D&D worlds and modules. Set some stuff on stone and all that yadda yadda.

Yes, I am aware that this is ambitious as hell. Aim high, at least you don't shoot yourself in the foot.

My next side-project will likely be diddling about with RPG Maker if I get that far, but only because I've hit a wall on Faxephoun. Ideas crowd me, and they have to come out somehow or I'd never be able to focus on anything at all.

Working on Sdrawckab - the first of my RPG Maker games - will help me get one of my ideas solidified. Turning out the first level and tutorial type beeswax whilst also making it a puzzle to solve that's neither too obvious nor too frustrating for my imagined players.

OR I could get back to learning Java because the Instants App really, really, really needs to happen. The master file is taking up six gigabytes in my google drive and I need to take care of it. Alas, not having something that can be tooled around with is disheartening, just a smidge.

On the other hand, watching my Google storage die is also disheartening, so I'd better make up my fluffy little mind.

Soon, Chaos is off to her school whilst Mayhem stays away from the swimming carnival. Fingers crossed his school doesn't make a fuss.

Onwards, outwards, upwards... likely sideways the entire time.

Fucking Anxiety at it Again

Whenever I try something big-for-me, there's always that spike of utter, abject terror that ends up with me hurting myself in strange and interesting ways.

For instance, yesterday I spilled hot soup on myself.

I wasn't hungry (warning sign) so I made myself a big ol' undertow mug of chicken stock broth. In the process of transferring the cup from the electric kettle stand to the bench where I planned to stir in the cream, I bumped the mug against the edge

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I did it!

I sent Adapting off and now the waiting game begins. The last potential publisher gets to wait until July or the other lot gets back to me, whichever happens first. They are my last, best hope (help me Obi-Wan Kenobi...). One gets back in 30 days, so word by the 12th of March or they don't want me. Their loss.

But I did it. I was brave and sent off the files they demanded. Yay me. Now I have most of an

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Progress?

I know where the problem is with Gears of Spud - the nebulous idle clicker I was concocting. I need to make a CSS style sheet so the layout is cemented.

Which means that my next goal-oriented HAM days are going to have "Learn CSS" on there. What it is, how to use it, how to make sure it doesn't muck up. That sort of deal.

I do know it's a way to include HTML into whatever doesn't use it, so I

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Another Full Day

I got a lot to do, of course. Another unfuckening of the house. Another Instant. Another 500 words. Another TAZ flash fanfiction.

Maybe I really am writing like I'm running out of time. Given the way the world is increasingly funked up, headed for assorted disasters - do you blame me?

I only have this life and I'm past my family average halfway point. Barring accidents and whatnot, I have my own lifetime left. Less than that.

If nothing else, I should

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New Habits to Forge

Obviously, I'm still getting used to the new focal range, especially when working on my computer. Having to turn my head more to pay special attention to things is... awkward. I'll get there in the end.

I have figured out that if I want to watch television whilst falling asleep, I have to swap over to my old formula. Things be blurry, but not too blurry to see and understand things up there. Good enough for now. Future-proofing that plan may be

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Back on the Wagon

Beloved is continually tempting me with treats on weekends. I succumbed to temptation and got a caramel-sugar sundae the other day.

Yesterday? Didn't have too much at all. I've fallen more or less into the habit of having one meal a day, with the occasional allowance for snackadoos.

My usual meal is one steak with an option for camembert and figs1 or my pickled strawberries and mascarpone if the steak in question is beef. For pork steak, I eat more of

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One Day, a Difference

I'm currently involved in an email debate with someone over my hurting rich people's feelings with a few words versus their ability to literally ruin everything. I will continue to call out the wealthy for their bad choices until they make a whole fuckton of good ones to prove me wrong.

Like, on the Wealthy People Agenda of things they could be doing but choose not to:

  • Demonetize the medical industry
  • Pay all employees a thriving wage
  • Promote and employ alternative energy
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Fun Was Had

The adventuring party is on the cusp of a TPK because we're being zerg rushed by a bunch of demons. It's not looking good.

My throat is sore, I'm currently existing on less than five hours' sleep, and I can not sleep.

Plus I just got a comment on a recent story via my Wordpress, which is a fairly odd angle to approach things, but I'm willing to extend the benefit of the doubt. It's difficult to derive a complete story out

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Burning at Both Ends Again

I give myself too many projects when I'm bored. Then I run out of time to do them because I overcommit to things. Then I burn out and get depressed and don't do any firkin thing.

It's a cycle. I'm trying not to ride it downhill this time around.

HAM only works when you have uninterrupted half-hours to do things. It's great for my day structure when there is no structure. When I gotta organise myself around other shit... it's not so

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Early to Rise...

Apparently I can't sleep past 4AM and today I plan to make that work for me. As you might have guessed, my Patreon and Wordpress content are missing so far this week and I aim to remedy that lack.

I hope.

I've already spaced out for half an hour over Tumblr's terrible decision to go high contrast and give their user base headaches. Way to go, guys. Another terrible decision in an unbroken chain of terrible decisions.

I swear to fuck, I'm

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Crosswired Again?

I remembered... then forgot... that today was the Cleaning day. On the plus side, I got all my writing done in good time. On the minus side... I spent a majority of the day fretting about the cleaning.

I'm not up to doing anything on my pet projects, yet and that's okay. Working out my time windows is part of the process. Re-enforcing HAM is definitely part of it because fretting about time is one of my biggest ways to waste time.

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A New Way

Master Mayhem is 17. In many places, that means he's expected to handle things for himself. Including himself. Therefore, I am no longer chasing him to be ready at a certain time. This is going to be interesting. My lovely little lad has ever been the type to ignore my warnings and then get smacked in the face with the consequences.

Just as an example: Mayhem has emerged from the bedroom and is now wandering the halls looking for his school bag.

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A flying start?

Mayhem went back to sleep three times this morning. He's going to need an early night tonight or he won't be prepared for school tomorrow.

Lad's in for some interesting times.

Meanwhile, Chaos is raring to go. I last saw her in her uniform and last heard her doing a giggle run up and down the hallway. She's all ready, already. Hooray. It's my dear darling Eldest who has to take a dose of personal responsibility.

He's going to get a lecture.

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Sunday! Sunday! Sunday!

We had a very nice Australia/Invasion day, yesterday. I ate too much, even if it's healthy food, when you eat too much, you gain weight. Now I have an extra kilo to shake off so I might go another fortnight on the strict plan.

I'll ask for advice from Beloved in that regard.

Today, I was reminded of one very important thing I forgot to get sorted before Back to School - SHOES.

Therefore, at a later time, there shall be

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