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My spleen overfloweth...

I get a lot of pent-up feelings. Possibly due to me biting my tongue and bottling things up for WAY too long, until the pressure is too much and I just vomit acidic words in random directions.

And the most recent cause is usually the biggest recipient.

I should be trying to find a way to politely express my exasperation, but when I'm feeling horrible, I just can't. I'm rude. I'm vicious. I'm... downright nasty.

And I know damn well I shouldn't be near anyone who gives me the irrits when I'm in a nasty mood.

I'm not going to apologise for all of yesterday's words. There was some truth in them. There was probably a lot of truth in them. Harsh and uncomfortable truth. It needs examining and sifting and smoothing over.

And, let's face it, having someone in my corner would help immensely. And not just a "hey I made a half-hearted effort at lip service to being in your corner, give me a cookie" attempt. I want someone to damn near break their heart trying.

Because I feel pretty close to broken right now.

I had a brief fantasy about making flash cards with all the things I hear on them. Phrases like, "I'm a bad parent," or, "I'm not doing things your way (and that's evil)," or, "I'm lazy," and, "I'm doing too many things for the kids." These last two are often used in the same breath. I can clearly imagine me holding them up in sequence until someone realises what they're doing to me.

BUT - if I actually did it, I would catch even more crap.

I feel like it's either that or screaming, "MAYBE IT'D BE BETTER FOR YOU IF I DIDN'T EXIST!" one day. Or possibly both.

I'm in a bad place inside my head. Despite a lovely, luxurious cuddle session with Beloved, I'm still in a bad place. I don't see many doors when I'm in these dark corners. But, oh boy, do I see lots of ways to burn all the bridges...

And I can't burn those bridges. That would be very bad.

Challenge #01156-C061: Eternal Knight

I like the idea of an undead paladin. They didn't rise because of some dark god or ritual or necromantic power but by four little words. I. Am. Not. Done. -- RecklessPrudence

The Serf-Page called Scun had watched the Mighty Torpen die. Nobody could possibly survive that many arrows and spears. And yet, Scun watched him fight on. The battle raged on and on as Orc after Orc fell to his blade. Long past the time that Torpen should have collapsed from

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Technical Difficulties...

I just this morning noticed something gone major league agley with my numbering system. I basically forgot how to do N+1.

This is going to frell up anyone who's looking for my stuff by old links, but I don't think many people do. The architecture is there in my main site, so all should be well.

Not that it really matters, right now. The aren't many people who view my page at all, so not many folks were inconvenienced.

All the

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Challenge #01155-C060: One Tiny Flaw

http://this-book-has-been-loved.tumblr.com/post/139007622507/things-ive-actually-heard-college-students-say

And another one -- Gallifreya

"Look," said the proud architect. "It's the perfect sealed environment. Everything anyone could need, including weather systems to strengthen the trees[1]. I thought of everything. Water purification and recycling, food manufacture. I even created a system that eliminates pathogens in the waste recycling system and removes all risks of infections. There's more than adequate space for everyone, lounges and personal space, shared space. Look. There's even a cinema!"

Director

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Aaaaahhhh...

If there's one thing better for the soul than a nice hot bubble bath, it's a nice hot bubble bath that Beloved invites themselves along to.

Mmmmmm... nice warm snuggly bubbly cuddly times...

I talked over a lot of my Gottadoits as well. Beloved has good advice that stops me stressing out over the little things. And chief amongst the little things is correcting the mistakes and ignoring the commentary. Unless something is obviously and humongously bad and at least two readers

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Challenge #01154-C057: One Ambitious Training Session on Amalgam Station

http://this-book-has-been-loved.tumblr.com/post/139007622507/things-ive-actually-heard-college-students-say

pick one -- Gallifreya

[AN: Only one? They're all gold!]

It was a minor Ambassadorial meet and greet session, allegedly concerning negotiations to stop the Greater Deregulations from being such massive collections of feces towards their fellow human being.

Not acting like massive collections of feces towards non-human cogniscents was going to take significantly more time and effort.

Laws and regulations were not really working. The most the Deregulations would do was show lip service

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Vote early, vote often

There's electoral kerfuffle around the world, it seems. Out here in sunny Queensland, in the wilds of Burpengary East, there's not only a national referendum, but a mayoral and council election.

Referendum - for the Americans in the audience - is where the politicians ask the entire nation a question and we answer 'yes' or 'no'. The most of either wins.

Currently, our political representatives get three years to fuck us around before they have to pretend to be nice in order

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Challenge #01152-C055: Different Hats

1) http://scienceisadesiretoknow.tumblr.com/post/139009801040/swingsetindecember-where-a-grad-student-becomes

Grad student is a villain for extra credit and/or money

2) Wander over Yonder - adventures of The Hat when Wander first gets it

(haven't seen it? episodes The Hat and Bad Hatter are the relevant ones, or do a story about Sans and a little orange cat) -- Anon Guest

[AN: Ya know, I could do three... my workload has eased up just recently. But not today, I think. BTW, the overlap

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Owie owie ow ow ow...

There's a reason why my fanbot is one good sneeze away from falling apart. It's because I feel that way far too often for my own comfort and security.

For instance: This morning, I woke up with a grinched hip.

My right hip can move in all the ways it's supposed to, it's just that it's firkin uncomfortable to do so. Which means that, once again, I will not be going for my daily walk.

I need to get back into good

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Challenge #01151-C054: One Blizzard-riddled Afternoon in the Antarctic Circle

Have you seen 'The Thing'? The 1982 one, based on 'Who Goes There?', not the 2011 prequel. Well...

Prometheus: I know you gentlemen have been through a lot, but when you find the time, I'd rather not spend the rest of eternity TIED TO THIS FUCKING ROCK! -- RecklessPrudence

[AN: I've seen the 1950's version of The Thing (aka: The Secret Origin of the Flaming Carrot) and I have to wonder about scientist's need to give random shit from space some

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Soldiering on

Something here is, I swear, that does not like me enjoying my life.

Yesterday morning, I forgot that I had to go on the Leyland's Tour to get Chaos some of the metal help she needs. The kid's wound tighter than an obsessive persons' clock. I can't really fathom why, Beloved and I spoil the spots off her.

Anyway. On top of that nonse, I also had to do my regular nonse, which included the monotonous and thankless task of linking up

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Challenge #01150-C053: Always Question

In a fantasy universe, what about an Agnostic Cleric? Doesn't really believe in any deity, just posts "help wanted" notices on the divine noticeboard. On the upside, has access to all the spell domains. On the downside, you'd be amazed on just what can count as "healing". -- RecklessPrudence

The Rogue watched the Cleric set up for the night. Usually, there was some kind of impromptu altar or extended prayer session, but this Cleric lit a candle and appeared to meditate for

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Well crap

My usual sleepy-time medication, a herbal anti-anxiety mix, failed and I woke up at 3AM today. I've been fighting it for an hour, but once I'm awake, I'm awake.

So I surrendered and prepared for today, only to find a whole bunch of vehicle related bills on my desk. Including a (gasp) speeding ticket! So I hate myself now because I'm usually so very good at keeping to the limit or just under it by 1kph.

And it's worse because Beloved took

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Challenge #01149-C052: Gods on Their Side

"HOW IS SUMMONING THE GOD-BIRD Of LIGHTNING STEALTHY!?" -- RecklessPrudence

The Cleric stopped in mid-chant. "Excuse you, but The Mighty Thunderbird is a master or mistress of the sneak attack. They glide silently, like a cloud, until they strike."

"But--"

"Their attacks are swift and, by the time the enemy looks, they are no longer there. Trust me. If you want an army annihilated, the all-powerful and Mighty Thunderbird is going to smite them thoroughly. All Glory."

There was a stunned silence

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::Zombie noises::

I've had the second shitty night in a row and that sort of thing is never good for me. My spoons are at a minimum. My entire day is going to be "Can't be arsed, gotta do it anyway" with a side order of slow, uncomfortable moaning.

Good thing Steam Powered Giraffe is there to help my limited powers of concentration and at least keep me in the same plane of reality.

Also good thing - Beloved has taken a shine to

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