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::Zombie noises::

I've had the second shitty night in a row and that sort of thing is never good for me. My spoons are at a minimum. My entire day is going to be "Can't be arsed, gotta do it anyway" with a side order of slow, uncomfortable moaning.

Good thing Steam Powered Giraffe is there to help my limited powers of concentration and at least keep me in the same plane of reality.

Also good thing - Beloved has taken a shine to taking the kids to school in the mornings, which means I won't need my abomination of caffeine until I start falling asleep where I sit. Yay.

Bad news - Beloved may have had an easy time convincing Chaos to go to bed with just warm milk, but my experiences have been... less productive. I'm going to have to go to the quack and get another prescription for her melatonin and tell them that it looks like an extended Thing.

Blurgh.

I don't want to have to scrape up breakfast. I don't want to have to take all my pills. I don't want to edit, today. I don't want to do anything but sleep and fart around.

BUT I have to be a professional about this and drag myself slowly onwards towards my ultimate goal of being a PAID author. As in regularly paid author. Roughly $2.21 a week doesn't pay for bread nor eggs. [Fact check: I sold The Amity Incident thrice over the last seven days, so my earnings are roughly $6.63 - barely enough to buy a dozen eggs. Assuming I could actually tap it directly]

I wish I had someone to look after me. Make sure I get good food and take my pills and otherwise look after my meat suit. And someone to clean up the messes for me because that shit is disheartening.

Don't mind me. I always wind up in a funk when I'm tired off my arse. It's payday today. We can get eggs and poppas and milk and all the little things that make life liveable. Which included meds to help Chaos sleep at night.

There's three of us taking stuff to help us sleep. My poor little darlings have both inherited my ideosyncratic sleep cycle and I wouldn't wish that hell on Scabbott. Maybe on Trump. He seems like he'd deserve it.

Throw money my way. I will personally tell Trump that he's a fuckface. All I need is plane fare to the US, transport to wherever he's dumping bullshit into a microphone, bail money for after, and accommodation and food along the way.

I'm going slightly mad...

Now that my BEST HOLIDAY is over [I still want more!] I have to get back to the daily slog of getting things Out There.

I'm adding a menu to last year's Year of Instants, which is kind of laborious because it involves lots of back and forth. And when I'm done, I still have to make sure the fonts all line up, blablabla...

I'm also -FINALLY- putting up Free Baby for Amazon Exclusive status.

And then I shall be seeking out

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Waiting for things to be organised

I should be getting used to this. My entire life has been waiting, more or less, for others to catch up. When I want to do something, I am entirely gung-ho about it. I will fly completely off the handle and be hell for leather about preparing.

Meanwhile, everyone else is like that tortoise from Merrie Melodies.

Which makes me stress out because the thing I am doing feels like the most important thing in the world to me.

Free Baby has

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Quietly dribbling

Beloved has shown me a lovely site called Ali Express which also comes with an app to shop with. I am under oath not to buy anything until we have money to spare again.

And in a total fit of insanity, I'm plotting to do some pride-flag clip-ons, so I've been looking up the assortments of seed beads.

Let me tell you about seed beads. They are tiny. They are most often glass. They are an absolute pain in the canker to

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Figuring things out

After some consideration, I have decided that my time and effort is best spent using my admittedly limited skills to help other folks by making things.

I know for a fact that there are ladies out there who can't or won't get their ears pierced. It doesn't matter why. It doesn't matter where - unless postage comes into it.

What matters is they must be sick and tired of the two mainstream options: (a) Granny buttons, or (b) Nothing.

I remember being

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Home Again, Huzzah

By my calculations, if I do an Instant today, I should have kept up with the ebb and flow of days quite well. Then I can focus on doing enough doubles to catch up on the overlap so my Years of Instants can be more or less in sync.

After an animated discussion with Beloved, raising money against leukemia isn't quite what it was cracked up to be. I shall have to figure out some other way to be helpful whilst also

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Welp. I'm buggering off...

Farewell US, farewell, Tucson. Farewell, all the amazing fun times I had here. I hope to return, but I know the realities of budgetary constraints and... I might not ever come back.

However, if Beloved wants to spend their frequent flier miles on another trip to see Steam Powered Giraffe... I will never never never say no. Best present ever. 100/10 would do again in a cold second.

And I have a bloody good cosplay to take with me if I

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O the carnival is over...

It's the day after WWWC5 and my feet and legs are still letting me know they don't like all the walking around I did. I'm so stiff getting up and down it's almost hilarious.

I entered the costume contest and won Best Automaton which came with a HEAP of swag including a cool light-up deelio that means I have to go get a Aus-US power adapter :P but that thing is going on my writing desk. YEAH!

I have blisters on my

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Success of a sort

I did get to ask David Bennett about putting the robots into my novels, and the answer was a polite version of, "Thanks but no thanks, you can't do it because legal difficulties."

Which is a slight pain in my arse because I have to track down everywhere I mentioned them and finesse something else in to cover those words. I was very careful to make my beloved automatons' appearance not important in any way to the story in the first place.

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The day after the night before...

I had an excellent time, yesterday. I didn't get to stay in character for any length of time at all, because the ever-fabulous Isabella Bennett was hanging out at the SPG merch booth.

...which sadly did not contain any T-shirts or Kazookaphones or patches :( Boo. But did contain one of my personal heroes.

I was one of the very few fanbots there. I guess everyone else wised up because wearing makeup in the heat makes the heat even more punishing.

But I

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Fun times, fun times

Alongside suffering from massive sleep dep, the after-effects of which are still plaguing me to a minor degree... I am also plotting to be active for way longer than I'm used to.

I haven't pulled stuff like this since Uni. But it's the price I have to pay to not miss an instant of Steam Powered Giraffe.

Thanks to my new friends and Chauffers, I have cheap nibbles so I don't have to spend my reduced fortunes on the highly overpriced fare

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I am now in foreign climes

I've unpacked, organised, WASHED... that last one was super important. 13+ hours in flight, plus a minimum of four spent in hurry-up-and-wait... I was wringing with perspiration.

I feel much better for a wash and a change of clothing.

And air conditioning. Blessed, cool air conditioning.

Ah how I missed it.

Of course, from the morrow onwards, I will be waking up super-early to get my blog and story done so that the missing count isn't all that huge.

Stand by. Story

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EEEEEEEEE....

OK so just on the red line, a very nice Onigiro volunteered hir brother for carpooling. Some, if not all of my candy may already be spoken for.

And this dawn, Beloved volunteered to drive my humble self to the airport so we don't have to fret about parking fees. And I don't have to worry about my car getting stolen or "Borrowed" Ferris Beuller(?) style.

[Though what anyone would want with a joyride in my crappy little car... I have no

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Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow...

Tomorrow morning is a busy morning.

Tomorrow morning, I get up,do my usual morning weigh-in [I'm in the 90K zone! Yay!] brush my teeth and take my meds... and then make sure both toothbrush and inhaler are in my carry-on.

Tomorrow, I take my refrigerated meds out of the fridge and pack them in my luggage. I make sure one baggie of supplements is in my carry-on and the other's contents go down my throat.

Tomorrow, I am sad to announce

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Almost there!

The dress arrived, yesterday! And it looks GORGEOUS!

If I ever order another one [my size has gone down since January, when I ordered this one] I will be sure to include my arm girth because these sleeves are more than a little snug when I bend my arms.

[Shown here: some blur of the dress just after it arrived]

You might not be able to see, but it has POCKETS! They're covered by the corset when I'm in costume, but who

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