Dear Diary

A 3741-post collection

Pump the Brakes!

Okay. So. This autumn season combined with the novel recovery efforts have made writing a literal pain. Fun.

It's okay if I take it slowly. I pause when my wrists start that low warning ache. Find something else to do.

I'm not going to power through it. That noise leads to worse pain and me laying up for who-knows-how-long with all sorts of medical intervention. Been there, done that, and it's amazing that I don't have lingering scars from the bracers.

Don't want to do that noise again. Especially since any efforts at speech to text have a higher chance of Google interrupting with "I'm sorry. I can't help you with that."

Give it five years, and Google thinking it's hearing its own name is going to be "ghost phenomenon". It isn't. It's the hypersensitive listening algorithm suffering from pareidolia in the ambient background noise.

In brief, the computer thinks the neighbourhood birds/traffic/dogs want to ask it a question.

But it can still scare the fuck out of you when Google decides to pipe up out of nowhere.

It's all I can do to not feel guilty about providing a steady stream of fanficcery to all the nice peeps on AO3. When I know I'm hard pressed getting my pro stuff organised.

Tomorrow's going to be "fun" because that's when I do 1K so I have my weekends off, but I have an added 500-minimum in the 12K recovery process.

Ugh.

I will take it at whatever speed I can manage. That's all I can do.

And if I have to do pro writing on the weekend, then so be it.

Awake at last...

But my head is full of kittens and one (1) disco ball.

For anyone who can't decant that into rational sentences: I'm as distractible as FUCK, today.

My brain is everywhere, today. Setting up for things that I may or may not do. Getting distracted by EVERYTHING much like this comic I made once upon a time.

The plus side is that I'm awake enough to do all the things.

The bad side is that I'm too distracted to focus on any

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I do NOT know what this is

I'm tired all the time. Just behind my eyes. The rest of me seems to be awake and full of energy -hell- I woke up at like 1:30 AM [aka "Fuckoff O'Clock"] and try though I might, I could only snatch an hour's more sleep.

It could be asymptomatic lurgi. It could be the seasonal Thing getting to me in new ways. It could be a deficiency of something wearing away at me like nobody's business.

And my hip has decided

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Blurgh

So I just... zonked, yesterday. Passed out. Had a major nap-nap. Whatever you call it, I overdosed on sleep. And the good news is that I needed that.

The bad news is that I was still able to sleep for a majority of the night and my bod is like "more!" Also, I didn't get even one word in on Rael over the weekend.

It's cool. I'll make myself do some today. Monday to Friday are my gotta-work days.

The other bad

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Black Panther is GOOD

Go see it. Loads of amazing visuals, actual thought going into the scenery. Loads and loads of Africa-is-not-a-desolate-dustbowl stuff. It's beautiful.

That said, it passed the Bechdel test in the last five minutes, almost as an afterthought.

We even had the Tokens turned on their heads. Token 'good guy' white man to balance out the token 'bad guy' black man who works with the heel-face-turner actual baddie of the second and third acts. And it is nice to see the white man

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Lazy Saturday

It's 9AM, I'm watching Black Lightning on Netflix, and I'm still only wearing me undies. I haven't moved out of my bedroom and I'm loving it.

It's a time to be an absolute slob for at least half a day. Because we have plans to see Black Panther this arvo.

It's gonna be a good day today.

I'll get to my word count in Rael whenever I feel like it.

I'm having a good, old-fashioned Slug Day.

For those keeping track of

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Friday!

I like Friday. It's the one day of the week when I only have to drive once. The one day when I can relax and just get on with it.

My wrists are complaining, so I'll be taking it real slow with my words, today. I'm going on the hundred-and-break plan, which is explained thus:

  1. Write 100 words
  2. Take a break and fart around for about 10-20 minutes
  3. If total < 500 goto 1, else quit.

This way, it takes two and

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Hello, Sneezin' and Wheezin' Season

I might have a cold. I might be running foul of a dose of Chicken Pox. Or I might just be battling the Autumn weather.

Time will tell.

I have my "Shandy" as a ginger delivery system. I have some new ginger. I can get ingredients for other ginger delivery systems. And If I'm still not better after a fortnight, that's when I drag myself off to the doctor to see if there's anything that can be done.

But I doubt that

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::Evil Laugh::

Today's the day. I posted that chapter of Random Encounters and the angst floweth deep in the comments section, oh boy.

They'll forgive me at chapter twenty-four.

I didn't get 1K in, yesterday. And rather than punishing myself for that, I decided to give myself an 'out'. I write a minimum of five hundred words. 1K is the 'bonus points' goal for the day. And it may be more merciful on my wrists over time.

I have noticed a twinge or two

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Huzzah!

My actual work compy is NOT dying! It doesn't even need repairs.

Nope, it was just my dumb arse keeping every tab in the world open that made it strain its poor little self. And since I've ceased being a dumbarse, I don't need a new compy.

A new lappy is now the goal, but we're sitting on our money until the latest lappy comes out.

Roughly halfway through this year.

Hope I can hang onto the money for that long. Temptation

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Whew

It's a good thing I decided to do things the right way around, this morning.

I knew I would not have time to get my money on the brat run, this AM. So I waited until Chaos' bus was on its way before journeying out to get cash and victuals to restock our supplies.

And a good thing I did, because I have barely had time to sit before now.

Got a few paragraphs in on Babes in the Woods, though, so

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Initiating Quarantine Procedures

The ur-cold feeling in the back of my throat is getting worse. I feel alternately feverish and chilled. Worse than my usual "too-hot/too-cold" lack of body temperature control.

Which is, I have found out, one of the multiple comorbs that happen with ASD. Yay.

We were running around, yesterday, so I only got 500 words in during the events of the day. Still, progress is progress and I swore I would not fuss.

1K during an entire weekend feels like a

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I have a weekend!

Things are coming together.

I have the money in the bank. I have an experiment in progress that I won't check for a bit. I have some savings that puts my $4K up by quite the notch.

If my change of habits has made a miracle, and I don't need to get my compy seen to... then I might just have enough squirrelled away for my very own actual FIRST LAPPY!

Which would be firkin awesome.

I gotta get onto my Ko-fi

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An Experiment

I have followed my dear family's advice and bookmarked the bajillions of browser tabs that I used to have open.

If this turns out to be the thing that was clogging my compy, then I shall publicly label myself a derpy derpington from derpton who derps all the live long day. Because I would be a massive derp.

The plus side of this being that I would then have $4K AUD to put towards a new lappy. Yay.

Which, in turn, would

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Back to... normal?

I think I have things worked out. Apart from the whole "owning a credit card" thing. Which I still haven't shifted myself for and probably won't today.

I have arranged things so I can do just about everything I need to do on the lappy. Yay. Including putting the Instants Master File up on the cloud. Huge deal. Each Year of Instants is pretty huge, but five of them? That's firkin enormous.

I put the money for my new compy/repaired compy

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