real life

A 3705-post collection

We're muddling...

We're scraping by. We're pulling our heads in...

And managing to maintain the little treats that keep us sane.

Of course, it's a struggle that would be made easier by some funding by you, dear reader, but we're managing.

I kind of feel like we're dangling over a precipice by my fingernails, but that's probably me.

The big needs are waiting for another pay cycle. The Wants are in stasis. Not coming to fruition for the foreseeable future.

And I'm in a constant fight with my own depression.

I just want to curl up and hide from the world until the Bad Things go away. But that doesn't work, so I have to keep plugging on.

Please give me some money. I could buy stuff with it.

Or you could go and buy my books which would give you a little something to show for it, BUT would take longer for me to get the money.

Yeah. I get more money from Smashwords, but... I get it quicker from the ugly feature at the top of this page. It's up to you, of course. Whether you give less quicker or more slower... I appreciate all income from you.

Just-- AAAAAAAAAUGH!

I have a lot on my plate at the moment. Lots of stressers on my dressers, as it were. So stand back, I am going to vent.

I already mentioned the injured cat. She has this cut above her eye that's not healing and is going to need expensive stitches. She's otherwise fine, just has this really grody-looking cut above one eye.

Mayhem and Chaos are both practising for the International Procrastination Olympics. Focussing intensely on the Farting Around 500, the Helplessness

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Oh me Feet

The problem with the daily grind [or at least, my version of it] is that once my shoes are on, I don't take them off. Which means that, by the time I have the opportunity to treat my feet, I lack the energy to do so.

And I'm grumpy when my feet hurt.

Which makes shopping for anything a trial for Beloved because I whinge a lot. Even when I don't mean to whinge, I whinge. And whingeing drains Beloved like a

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I need a Paypal Donate button

::Strums off-key guitar like I know what I'm doing but I clearly do not:: Yeah, got the, outta money for four days, can't do jack about it bluuuuuuuuueeeeeeees... (Ga-thunk, ga-thunk, ga-thunk, abowm-bowm...)

Don't worry, dear readers. We have enough stores to weather the thin patch. It's going to be a can of arseholes and a sack of armpits to deal with, but... we've dealt with worse.

Try being out of cash for a week, sometime.

Sigh. Times are tough.

I need new

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Curses...

Okay so my own system has up and decided to lock me out. None of my passwords work at the mome. And if I can't log in to NodeBB, then I can't add comment abilities to my stories.

Ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu....

Patience, my dear readers. You will be able to comment again soon. Not that anyone has as of yet... Ah well.

This is going to take a bit of a while. I'm sorry.

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I'd say TGIF, but...

Fridays are my busy day. And on top of that, Mayhem now has Home Ec on Fridays so that includes a potentially budget-busting round of every parental's favourite game, What Do You Need For School Now?

I used it as an excuse to get Mayhem some First House stuff on the side. Dollar shops are an amazing source of cheap kitchen shit with a moderate amount of actual quality.

That said, never buy dollar shop tongs. Just... don't. Those fuckers will break

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Bargains! Bargains! Bargains!

I got $50 birthday money to spend irresponsibly, yesterday.

So of fucking course this morning, I made a beeline for the places that sell iTunes cards. I wanted an entire $50 card, not one in instalments.

And I'm kinda glad I did, because Target sold me a $50 card for $40 :D

I feel like a massive thief, now. But I'm still loving it.

And I still have $10 to spend irresponsibly.

I wonder if I can put a deposit on Steamworld

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Fuck today in particular

Okay, so here's everything that's gone wrong so far...

My phone got pocket-dialled onto Silent mode so I didn't hear the alarm letting me know it was time to hustle the kids off to school.

I got notified about this when Chaos' bus people called and asked what was going on. We were an entire hour late.

PANIC MODE.

Hustle the kids and their gear into the car at warp nine. Spend three minutes trying to start it. The fucking thing's broken

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Happy birthday to me

This is the third year I've given away a story on my birthday for free. I have quite the stable of free tales but this is more introspective than most.

When you look at society, really look at society, you discover a great deal of unfairness based entirely on things an individual can not help.

Skin tone - society judges you within thirteen seconds and that prejudice remains. The darker your skin, the more threatening you are to paler people.
Genitals -

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I had an adventure! (and I've been playing with new toys)

You may have noticed that yesterday's story was more than a teeny bit late. That was because Beloved took me on a trip to the movies. And shopping.

All birthday presents.

Don't panic, dear readers. There's still a bit of a while before October Fourth. [What I really want for my birthday is for one of my stories to go viral. Or loads of book sales.]

As for the swag, I got what every writer loves to get - PENS! But these

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Who's ready for something new?

Today's the day I start working on my forum prompts. Which means I have to learn an entirely new way of doing things, including crediting the peeps who prompted me in the first place.

But first - Beloved is taking me to go and see The Martian because they are made of awesome <3

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My life is on the cusp of sucking, but don't worry

Good news: Beloved is keeping the day job. We're nominally financially stable for the foreseeable future.

Bad news: The help I'm getting for Chaos is due to run out just when we need it the most.

Good news: It was hellishly expensive and borderline unafordable, so we'll have slightly more money next year.

Bad news: Which will be too late for me to get enough shit together for experimental stuff to help Chaos with.

I feel like such a whiner about this.

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It never rains...

It firkin floods.

Bad news has a tendency to snowball around me. I don't just get one bucket of poop descending upon my life like a fateful, fragrant comet. No. I get trucks of it. By the dozen.

And there is something drastically wrong inside my head that makes me blame myself for shit that's out of my control.

Beloved's work superiors act like whiny, micro-managing idiots and make Beloved want to quit? Somehow, it's my fault. Fandom friend some literal thousands

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Ch-ch-ch-changes...

Every morning, I have been waking up to something new happening on this site. And it's all because of Beloved. They're spending their precious free time on tweaking, primping, and otherwise fancifying my blog for you.

Today's feature is a Subscription button WAAAAAAYYY down on the bottom of the menu. Don't worry, it's free.

What you get out of subscribing is a simplified feed of everything that goes into my blog. I have to assume that it's mobile friendly because said feed

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And speaking of technical hitches...

I hadn't ticked a checkbox that I really should have checked, and the two prompts I thought I had are -uh- not there.

It's all in working order now. To give me a prompt, all you have to do is click "Feed the Muse!" in the menu. You will then be able to create a New Topic with your prompt.

Yay.

This is the only place that I allow anons to play like this, so I kind of expect a little responsibility

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