A 7-post collection

Almost There

I'm headed into triple figures with B'Nar, which means I'm seven weeks away from writing the last word on this thing. Seven weeks until the legitimate hard work begins on the story beats for a fantasy trilogy that will mean THREE FUCKING YEARS of just... writing one book, starting on the next, writing the middle book, starting on the third, writing the third book, etc. etc.

And the editing. Sweet merciful Powers That Be, the editing. It's not going to be just one hundred and twenty thousand words. It's going to be thrice that. Three hundred and sixty thousand words. World building, character creation, style decisions, names... all that jazz.

I have a Trello created so I can keep stuff organised, but I'm using all the free features, so I don't even know if there's stuff I could be doing with this shiznit to keep it all together.

What I do know is that my Google Drive can't contain that much of a MarkDown document, so I'll be working in Google Docs for the duration.

I've already decided that my primary character is going to be (1) Black, (2) like really Black, (3) transfeminine, which will (4) be her driving motivation for going on this long-arse quest business in the first place. This is, of course, a big, fat middle finger to all those people who say you can't have Black or Trans people in sweeping fantasy. I already have a silica-based lifeform as the central plot point, so I'm really hemming and hawing about including all the other Fantasy Races(tm).

It's easier to write a trilogy with communication and learning to understand others as a central theme, when there's only one peoples who have their own prejudices already. It's also easier to have prejudiced people when they can honestly believe they are the only people who count.

Then there's terminology. Should I use the historically plausible 'Blackamoor' for fantasy flavour, or make up my own term? Or do I - a whiter than milk author - allow a Black character I invented name herself via my fingers? Instant tar pit.

Or I can look up what [BORROWED CULTURAL IDENTITY I CAN RESEARCH] called themselves and use that. Weigh in, folks. I want to stay the fuck away from the bad racism whilst also showing white people how they can casually be nasty to people of colour without realising it and -sometimes- without realising how they're being nasty.

Obviously, I'm going to need people with that perspective to help weigh in on that stuff. I follow lots of lovely POC and lots of lovely Trans folk, so I know about the microaggressions. I think I'm pretty good at travelling through other ppl's heads... but I want to make certain? That, and I don't want to be That White Person who takes over a marginalised narrative. So... yeah. Head-hopping pretty much has to happen through the main characters. Once I work out who the main characters are.

If I do a main boss big bad countering my heroes, I feel like I should make them a whiter-than-wonderbread incel sort. You know, since they're the consistent badguy in the modern world.

For those of you wanting to defend these folks... the last ten multiple massacres of defenceless civilians have been performed by whiter-than-wonderbread incel types.

I'm still making decisions on lots of this, so I'll probably end up adding text to Ee the Changeling while I'm busy worldbuilding this epic.

Also - this is Fantasy. Trans and POC might not want to read a hero suffering microaggressions, so... yeah. I gotta consider that. As well. If I do do some gritty reality, it's more like medieval hygiene and food spoilage than people being nasty just to have people being nasty.

I'll run it through my Tumblr Peeps. They have their finger on the pulse of the mood. I don't want to be cringe, over here. Likewise, I don't want it to get dark and I've been in a very dark mood of late.

I want to try and be the change I'd like to see in this world.

Your vote matters!

In things political, of course, but also for this nonsense. In this case, I want to know what you want to see out of me by this Wednesday.

Vote here and vote often. I'll be checking.

It's another unfuckening day, and I need money to bribe educate Mayhem into learning how to drive proper. Poor lad's got the quirbles again, so he's getting a minimum of one day off because quirbles.

Of course I'll be asking if he's been taking his meds.

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Holidays... Mostly

School holidays commence this afternoon. Huzzah. I have two weeks of mostly living in my Kigu to look forward to.

Except Monday. I'm getting my flu needle then. For all other things, I am jamming in my toe socks and Kigu and Not Going Anywhere. So there.

So of course my Beloved has plans to get me out and make me do stuff. Which will happen with the mandatory whining.

Beloved has plans all the time. One of which will arrive today.

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Don't Panic!

I plain old forgot to write a thing for my Wordpress. Those who come here to find out what the fuck will be glad to know that I invested my time in...


Thirty seconds of animation in a music video I'm making in Adobe Animate. Yay.

I will be writing something Op-Ed-y eventually. I already have a title: Re-spec Mah Prioritah. Which is basically "I didn't do anything productive" in another hat. This hat is called, "I did something productive, but

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Maintaining focus

Friendo is going home, this morning. I'm still lacking a certain amount of vitality to my days. I probably need a few more fats.

One MCT smoothie or two should help me pep up. I hope. Either that or a REALLY good napnap when I'm done with my day.

I am attempting this thing called Self Control again. Focussing on the stuff I need to do before I get onto the stuff I want to do. I need the practice.

I do,

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For today, we diet

The hardest thing about going back onto a diet is the diet-buster leftovers. Sitting there. Being tempting with all their sugary goodness. Or badness. Depending on your point of view.

I'm planning to fast for a little while. Good old salty broth should set me right over a few days.

The hardest part is going to be staying away from those temptations until next weekend.

Today, all going well, there should be another progress video for the cover art up on my

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I just found the best motto

So I was procrastinating more than usual [it's Saturday here. Ner] and in-between playing YouTube videos and Minecraft, when I spotted this post with its equally hilarious motto.

"Whatever doesn't kill me... had better start running"

I want to wear this on a shirt. I want to have it on a cap. I want some, highly visible garment that I can firkin wear everywhere and have people read it and smirk.

I firkin love that attitude.

Even if I don't have the

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