I discussed money issues with Beloved in the evening. As it turns out, most of the expenses were directly related to bills and paying off debts.
We're relatively debt free, right now. But we're also money poor.
And Christmas is going to be hellishly expensive, even with my frugality in the balance. For example: Beloved suggested using actual sealing wax for the gift basket stuff. Two of the lovely bottle types have corks, and they're going to need a functional seal.
I now have the volume of vinegar I need, by the way. One and a half litres. And that's allowing extra in case of spills or any other kind of loss.
Of course we'll have some left over for ourselves. What's the point of making something if you can't try it?
It just won't be in pretty bottles.
I have my 'before' photo of the rosemary. With Chaos for scale. You'll likely get the entire photo-journal on Monday or later. Depending on my spoon level at the time.
I must not think of the bills that are still waiting. I must focus on making it to the next payday. We have enough food. We're going to be fine.
It's just next week. And next weekend. And until the following Tuesday. I can do this.
It's just that it's bloody terrifying for me.